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  • Maddox

    There are many ways I could tell this story. 

    I could tell you how a seemingly random series of events put me right where I needed to be, at the most crucial time. I have no doubt that there was something bigger at work than just chance. This was some kind of divine intervention. And as a result I am grateful, humbled and heartbroken all at once... 

    I could tell you that, for the first time in my career, my photos are being featured in a magazine. And while I'm excited to join an incredibly talented group of women who contribute to The Village, it's totally bittersweet. How could I possibly celebrate with such a heavy heart? To be honest I'm just relieved that it will be one more way to keep his memory alive...

    The story I will tell...well it's the only one that really matters.

    Maddox Monterey was born on October 10, 2014 and he was one of the sweetest, happiest babies I've ever met. He had the kind of joy that radiated from his big, bright eyes. His mothers absolutely adored him. In fact, I've never seen anyone look at her child the way Alyssa looked at Maddox. She was in complete awe of him and the way he transformed her life (in the best ways possible). The day I photographed them I knew I was witnessing the incredible bond between a mother and her baby. But I had no idea what a defining moment this would be in their lives. Within days of our session Maddox passed away unexpectedly. It's still difficult to even type those words. This perfect child, so full of everything that is good about life, was gone way too soon...

    I could also tell you how this experience has rocked me to my core and made me question how I spend my time and where I focus my energy. There have been many times over the past five years when I've wondered if I should give up my business and devote this chapter of my life to raising my children without distraction. It's not necessarily what I want to do, but maybe it's what I should do...

    But now, when my heart is full of doubt, I hear Alyssa's voice in my head...telling me how much what I do matters. That I have no idea what it means to her to have these photos. And then I see Maddox's smiling face. He reminds me how important it is to fully embrace each moment and create memories with the people we love...the people who truly matter. 

    I will never, ever forget Maddox. And I hope you won't either. His life may have been short, but it was so full of love...